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On taking a chance…three years later.

Three years ago today, I walked into a restaurant, anxiously awaiting my date to arrive. It was my self-proclaimed ‘last ditch effort’ at match.com, after almost two years of on and off online dating, I was ready to throw in the towel and do some soul searching. But there was this guy that caught my eye, as if every single word of his profile was written AT me, and I couldn’t resist, I had to take one more chance.

He walked through those doors and I had nervous anticipation. What if he wasn’t who he said he was. What if he wasn’t what I expected him to be. What if…it was another letdown. But as soon as he got closer, all of that melted away. Because he already *seemed* to be who I thought he *might* be. And when he greeted me, I looked into his eyes and I saw…him. And it felt right, and familiar, in a way, and my anxieties quickly dissapeared. As soon as he guided me to our table, placing his hand gently on my lower back, I melted. The small touch of chivalry…just spoke to me.

And from that day forward, three years in the making, here we sit. That was the beginning of my first (and last ‘first!’) date with M, the man I was meant to meet and  marry. It blows me away every time I think about the last three years. Of where we have been together. Of what we have experienced. Of the love that we have cultivated. Of the best friendship that we have built. Of the life we brought together. Of us. Of the home that we now live in…and? The marriage that has united us, forever.

Three years ago, there was no way I would have ever guessed that, fast forwarding to today, my life would be what it is today. Five years ago, I would not have believed, or perhaps trusted, that my life then, broken, alone, heart shattered, would transform into the life that it is now.

It honestly makes me speechless. It gives me chills. And a wave of thankfulness, blessedness and happiness washes over me.

Three years with the man that has made me believe in true and utter love, to the soul love…the love that you see with the catch of an eye, the turn of a smile, the comfort of a hug and the passion of a kiss.

Love that – had I not gone through what I did, had M not gone through what he did – that would never have happened. Love that came together because of what we both went through. And again, that brings us both to the realization, yet again, that we were brought together because we were meant to. Because we trusted, had faith and took a chance.

Truly.
Truly.

Thankful things Friday

As I have been trying my best to participate in the 40 days of thankfulness challenge on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram this month, I thought it would be fitting to share a few things I’m thankful for on this Friday (FINALLY EFFING FRIDAY, I should say – longest.week.ever.)

First up? I’m thankful to have the best boyfriend fiancee ever. <–still getting used to this. I hate the word fiancee, actually, but it does sound like a wonderful ‘upgrade’ from boyfriend, doesn’t it? Since he is so much *more* than that. I honestly don’t think there is a day that doesn’t go by that he doesn’t surprise me in some way, show me love in a unique or even, funny, way, or make me laugh hysterically.

On the ‘one-month’o-versary’ since we got engaged (like that moniker?!).Last night, when I got home from teaching my third barre n9ne class on the day (#nevergetsold #b94lyf!), as I was attempting to make my ‘ice cream reward’ (Oikos frozen greek yogurt vanilla, with a spoonful of Chobani vanilla chocolate chip yogurt, a few strawberries and a sprinkle of M&Ms!), he pulled me into his arms and hugged me, kissed my cheek and said, ‘you are the most beautiful, smart, loving, hot woman in the world, did you know that?’ Swoon. (and he says this to me quite often, of some variation, but in the most unforeseen moments. #thebest).  And this morning? As I was rushing out of the shower (yes, we do shower together most days – TMI, perhaps, but with such a huge tub, it just makes sense, right? And it’s our morning time together before we start our days!), trying to skirt around him as he was all soapy, he lathers soap all over me and laughs, ‘see, now you can’t get out! you’re all soapy!’ wise guy. 

🙂

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My sisters.

Duh, this is a no brainer, right? But seriously, we had the best time on Monday at a long-awaited ‘sister dinner.’ Just us three. No distractions. Not even the best niece in the world. Just us. Out to dinner, wine, chit-chat. Catching up on our lives, talking about Jess’s marathon, Jen’s foray into her new job, and well, marriage ideas 😉 We giggled. We finished each other’s sentences (and Jen’s wine hehe). We bitched. (nothing bad, just stuff that only us sisters would get amongst ourselves about random things!). We just had fun together. And it is one more step closer as I simplify and make more time for those I care so much about. Like my sisters and my niece.

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Mexico. 

Today is my last day of work until 10/29. Wheeeee! M and I are heading to Playa del Carmen at the uber early time of 5:30 am on Monday to celebrate this girl’s wedding!! We are staying Monday-Friday and her wedding is on Wednesday. Beyond that? Not planning a damn thing. Beach, books, talking, sleeping, enjoying. Perhaps a run or two. Perhaps a barre n9ne-for-one, but beyond that, simplicity.

This is the first vacation that M and I have gone on together, alone. We’ve traveled together quite a bit over the course of our 2+ years together and I feel so fortunate to have the opportunity to do that, but this time? It’s just us (oh and a wedding to attend hehe and celebration to be had hehe!). I couldn’t be more thrilled.

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Happy weekend AND week ahead, friends. Do something to simplify this week, mmk? And I’ll be sure to drink a glass of wine or 17 next week for all of you suckers stuck at work (sorry, I couldn’t resist!). Cheers!

I’ll take chair #3 please 🙂

I was going to write about thankfulness.

But, to be honest? I think I write about this so often, already, and giving thanks shouldn’t be a once a year thing, (Lindsay also points this out, I loved it, just as my sis did!), it should be an everyday thing.

Instead of chronicling everything that I am thankful, grateful, and blessed for in my life, I am going to internalize them, think about them, and say them to those I love. Today, tomorrow, this weekend, and more often every single day. I tend to assume that others know how much they mean to me, but clearly, that isn’t always the case.

So, in showing my thanks, I am going to pay it forward…say it more often than think it or write it. Do things for others more often than for me (I get much more joy giving to others than to myself…it is such a great feeling to see someone’s eyes light up when you hand them a gift for no reason, no birthday, or holiday, or anything), and trying to put forth a little piece of the gratitude that I have overflowing in my life, to others.

So, I guess I did write about thankfulness, huh? A blank slate…and this just came to me.

Friends, I wish you all a beautiful holiday, and if it’s not technically Thanksgiving in your area of the world, I hope you take a minute, take a step back, breathe, move away from life’s complications for a moment and just think of one thing that makes life just a little better. I’m going to try to do this more, daily, if I can, because no matter what, it brings a smile to my face.

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I’m excited to celebrate my second Thanksgiving with M, as well as with my family. It feels entirely different than last year, even more full and happy than it did then.

Off to Maine I go for some much-needed time with my grandparents, and then back to my neck of the woods for dinner with M’s family.

(I joke that tomorrow is my ‘superbowl’ of making healthy choices for the day and not blowing it outta the water as in years past! I know I can do it, and still enjoy the day, the food and the people!)

And then? A few days of continued celebration, downtime, and of course, shopping. Wheee!

Cheers friends.

(on another note? one of my closest friends had her baby boy today…how fitting. I cannot wait to meet him, hopefully sometime this winter, given they live in Florida. The fact that she went through divorce, just as I did, and met the man she was meant to be with is so inspiring for me. Love you friend!!)