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Scratching the surface.

As I was responding to all of your beautiful comments, congratulations and sentiments about our two year anniversary, it struck me.

Our relationship, our bond and partnership? It’s just scratching the surface.

Like in all things in life, we are just at the beginning, truly, in the depths of our love and journey together.

In a way? That’s extremely humbling. And in another way? It gives me a sense of peace, gratitude, and excitement.

If these have been the best years of my life, what’s ahead? What else do we have to look forward to, to conquer together, to strengthen? So. SO much.

I think the same holds true for many areas of my life. This ‘scratching the surface’ mantra.

My barre n9ne journey, for example. Including teaching, and continuing my quest for mindful and intuitive eating. I declared peace with food, but it is an everyday quest (I won’t say battle, because it’s more about cognizance than anything for me at this point). And when I look back at the one year ‘there is no end game’ post and where I was mentally and physically? I feel like I’ve already come so much farther since then. And that was just a mere four months ago. 

And finally, my life, in general. It’s just scratching the surface. From continuing to focus on balance, priorities and UNplanning, to slowing down. The Lindsay challenge that I am going to try to abide by this month and, hopefully, onward.  To looking around and realizing that this life is one that is meant to be lived, not rushing through, not trying to get to ‘the good parts’ to not hoping for things that will come in time, when they’re meant to, to realizing that this life we only get one shot at.

Enjoy it. All of it. Because we’re just scratching the surface on what’s to come.

I hope this makes sense. It’s sort of what’s flowing in my brain at the moment. And what about you? What’s just scratching the surface in your life? When you really step back and think about it? You can find it in just about every area of your life, I am willing to guess. And that’s a good thing.




Embracing – and loving – wholesome foods, like whoa.

One of my biggest priorities in my budget spreadsheet (yes, spreadsheet…something my sister brilliantly concocted and it has truly gotten me back on track, she should patent it!) is food. And not ‘eating out’ food, but my weekly grocery shopping trip. M always teases me about the fact that I must go to the store each and every week and spend a fair chunk of money in the process. He calls me a stockpiler (I take pride in that! hehe!). My cart is chock full of fruits, vegetables, whole grains, beans, lots of Chobani, cottage cheese, Laughing Cow, Baby Bell Light and lean meats and seafood. Rarely do I buy processed foods (if I get crackers, it’s for when we have company and I usually go for Kashi or another whole grain brand), or if I do, it’s for M (Doritos!) or a box of cake mix to make lowfat cupcakes (made with 1 can of pumpkin and nothing else…so tasty!)

And I don’t say this because I am bragging about how ‘good’ I eat. I say this because eating wholesome foods is so damn delicious. This IS my splurge. I look forward to my huge bowl of oatmeal in the morning (obsessed, as you know), and to concocting the perfect ‘loaded’ salad or testing out a new recipe from a fabulous blog friend or two. I feel satisfied, I feel nourished and I actually do feel like I am splurging. If you’ve ever melted some peanut butter and dipped fruit in it? Holy cow, that is GOOD.

For me, it goes back to something Tanya at barre n9ne has said – make peace with food. Enjoy it. Attach a memory to it. Enjoy the atmosphere around you, and don’t focus solely on the food itself. That makes a good meal or food choice or a splurge (a homemade chocolate chip cookie, for example), completely worth it. To eat them daily, it loses its ‘aura’ in a sense, but to go for it when you are REALLLLLLY craving it? Absolutely warranted.

I am probably rambling, but I just feel so strongly about this, because I am finding myself getting to that place where I may not feel as compelled to log my food daily. And to use ‘log-less’ days not as days to go overboard, but to test myself and what I’ve learned in the past 10 months. I feel content with what I eat. I feel happy with a good meal that is tasty and filling.

And when I wake up in the morning and get this excited for food? I call that embracing – and loving – wholesome foods like whoa. This is what I wrote on my Facebook page and I meant every word 😉

I am ridiculously excited for all of my meals today. Weird? Perhaps. But oatmeal goodness for breakfast (drool…), loaded beet salad for lunch and more of the absolutely delish warm lentil salad with goat cheese I made last night for dinner? Bliss. And yes, I just recapped my planned meals for the day. What of it?

I mean, check out these concoctions! Damn good. I am literally so excited for my meals today. And I know they will fuel me for my day, tonight’s barre fusion class (and maybe a run…still debating that one as we speak) and will even give me a little mental boost as well.

Beets, walnuts, goat cheese, tons of greens - pure lunch deliciousness!
Warm Lentil Salad over greens (adapted from Heather/Where's the Beach), with quinoa and butternut squash and a dash of goat cheese. Absolutely one of the best things I've eaten in awhile!!

So that’s my ramble for this fine Wednesday (though I swear it should be Thursday by now!)…good eats make me happy. Who knew?!


On habits and ‘weaning.’

I’ve been debating on writing this post for awhile, but after reading a couple of others that relate, in some capacity, I’m going to give it a go.

It’s no secret that healthy eating and eating for fuel are two of my mantras, but sometimes, I, like everyone else, struggles with balancing that with the idea of moderation and giving an inch once in awhile. But that idea of ‘giving an inch’ once in awhile is actually a lot harder than I thought it would be. As some of you know, I track my calories in a food log and have, ever since starting the barre n9ne challenge last May. I never thought I would still be tracking my eats to this day, but then again, never thought I’d have seen such progress and completely changed my habits, my body, and my view on eating, either.

Why is it hard? Because anytime I have gone ‘log-less’ for whatever reason it may be, New Year’s Eve, for example, or a special evening out, where I know that while I will choose healthy options, and it won’t add stress to my evening (that can ruin it for me sometimes, to be honest. Getting all up in my head too much), I end up sometimes sliding into the idea that I have ‘freedom’ to go a little farther than I should, a couple extra glasses of wine, or a couple of extra snacks or bites of food that I would normally stay away from because they are my ‘trigger’ foods. Because, in my head, I’m thinking, oh, I am not counting calories today, I ‘can’ have that extra snack, or I ‘can’ have an extra drink. When what I should be doing is using these ‘log-less’ days to retrain my mind and use these days as ‘weaning’ days. A test. Can I go ‘log-less’ and still stay on track. Or is my log my crutch?

It boils down to mindless eating, in a big way, too. (Melissa wrote an awesome post on this today, worth checking out!) Something I thought I’d kicked pretty well to the curb. But on the occasions where I have gone without logging my food, looking back on it the next day, I definitely had an extra treat or snack, simply because I was not ‘counting it.’ Gah! Why is this so hard sometimes?

And as Tina (again, Tina, your posts have totally spoken to me lately!) points out in the last of her ‘stuffed with emptiness’ series (which are truly incredible to read), there are times when I just WANT to stray and I WANT to go back to old habits of eating half a bag (or the whole bag) of baked cheetos (another trigger food that I refuse to buy) or Starburst jelly beans (a handful here, a handful there…adds up. Hello trigger food!). And sometimes, I guess, there is something to be said for allowing that, even just a little bit. But when it becomes a habit, or returns as a habit, that’s when it becomes a red flag for me.

So where do I go from here? I am honestly not sure. I know that I have a good handle on what I need to eat in a day to calorically fuel my body. I generally know what to eat on weekends that balances being fueled with allowing for a couple glasses of wine, if I’d like them. But the idea of stopping logging my eats scares me…because I know my habits aren’t ‘fixed’ and there’s still some work to be done.  I guess the only thing I can do is to keep trying to ‘test’ my log-less days (purposely giving myself them and at the end of the day, plugging it all in and seeing if I still come close to where I should be) and reversing the notion on my brain that these are ‘free’ days to do as I please.

Because ultimately, I always feel better when I eat healthfully, while also allowing myself to have that glass of wine, or that piece of chocolate. What works for me here, with logging, doesn’t work for everyone, and I know my perspective on this might even seem stringent to some. But I go with ‘ to each his own’  on this because everyone has an opinion. Everyone has an approach. But what works for me – this – may not work for everyone. And that’s okay. I just feel as though I need to put that out there because I can almost see the eyebrow raises virtually 😉

I write this here more for accountability, and for thinking through my next step and where I want to go. How I want to possibly wean myself away from feeling the ‘need’ to log my food and just trust that what I have learned and what I have taught myself will ‘stick’ and keep me continuing on my forward path. Towards my why and living with intention. I think baby steps will get me there.