Quietly contemplative. 

About my (fitness) journey and feeling on the cusp of change and growth..as I face PT for my bum knee (that – side note – plays mind games with me because it feels a-ok all the time…except when I run, making me think it’s not injured. #mindgameslikewhoa), knowing I may be on a bit of a hiatus from running and what that’ll mean when I can get back to it. How can I head into it stronger? How can I use this time wisely, to cross train, to strengthen, and, begrudginly, to rest. In a way, it excites me to think of facing running stronger and more focused than ever. I have some ideas on how I envision it, and how I plan to make that a reality. Stronger, better, happier running? Yes, please.

Quietly confident. 

As I gazed in the mirror during a fabulous day o’ beauty with my sis Jess, and I looked at the jeans I was wearing (in the smallest size I’ve ever worn) and in a tank that I used to shy away from, more fitted, less forgiving, I smiled quietly to myself. It feels good to well, feel good. 

As I faced an evening where there would be some ‘trigger’ foods or environment where I might fear overdoing it. Yet, I didn’t. I felt good, satisfied, and not stuffed.

As I walk into the barre n9ne studio, among my fellow instructors for a photo shoot (pictures to come! can’t wait to share some!), where comparision-itis could set in…yet, didn’t. Because I realized – we all have our strengths. We are unique in our own ways. Don’t wish for something you aren’t or won’t be, embrace who you are, instead.

As I realize I don’t need to shout it from the rooftops or be front and center. I don’t need attention. I am just…quietly confident. It suits me. It is who I am. 

Quietly inspired(ing). 

By my family, by my sisters, by M. They inspire me each and every day. With an act, a statement, or something they are going through.

And inspiring…in my own way. Without even realizing it. And when I finally do? Inspired right back, by paying it forward, in this happy, fit life.

I’m feeling quiet today…but in the most inspired, contemplative and confident way. Not sure how else to explain it, but it’s just a good feeling. It’s BEing. Really and truly.

Happy Sunday, friends. Cheers.


26 thoughts on “Quietly.

  1. Ahhhhh just LOVE this post sis, loooooove looooove looooove iiiiiit. You summed it up perfectly — quietly confident, quietly just BEing you, the most beautiful, confident, happy ‘you’ that you’ve ever been. I love this for you sis…for us, really since we’re sort of walking a parallel journey again at the moment, and I honestly wouldn’t want to share ‘this’ with anyone else. Love you sis! and ASSLAP, you rocked those jeans this weekend, I must say 😉

    1. Thank you sis. I feel like I am finally getting to a point where I feel like I can just BE myself and not force anything or try to be something I am not. Ya know? Hard to find identity sometimes. And you rocked your jeans too 🙂

  2. What a beautiful post to read today 🙂 I’m so happy for you to being feeling this way! You deserve to be and so much more 🙂

  3. Wow. Totally love this – the quiet, the calm, the confidence. And as much as injuries suck, I do think that they can be a blessing in disguise sometimes. I have no doubt that you’ll come back with not only a renewed passion for running but also stronger and smarter.

    1. I am super bummed, but I am making the most of it, the only thing I can do, right? AND I am so glad it is winter (the one time I’ll ever say that! AND that I can do other things!)

  4. I want to light a candle and take a bath after this post – I feel like I’ve been going, going, thanks for the beautiful peaceful reminder.

    You are such an amazing writer!

  5. Was reading through quotes & thought of you!! Hope your week is off to a great start 🙂

    “Injuries are a test to see if you will let it break you, or make you stronger.”

    “When something bad happens, you have three choices. You can either let it define you. Let it destroy you. Or let it strengthen you”

  6. Oh, you should be so confident! You are one of the most beautiful people inside and out. Glad you got some pampering in and hope it made the R&R a bit sweeter off from running. Best time to get a pedicure (think I remember you getting one?) when you aren’t poudning your feet, right? 😉

  7. I just used the phrase “on the cusp” in your previous post (catching up), and it’s the first line of this post. Whoa. LOL

    I love that you and Jess have days o’ beauty together. I miss my sisters terribly.

    I can’t WAIT to see the photos from the shoot. 🙂 Loved seeing all the behind-the-scenes photos. 😀

    So proud of you and your confidence. I find that quiet confidence is solid confidence. Quiet confidence is reflective and modest. Peaceful. Just like you said. 🙂

    1. WEIRD! LOL! I can’t wait to see the pictures either!! I wish you were here to take them 🙂 I will cherish my sister time extra, just for you my friend! I love what you say about quiet confidence, so true! XO

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