I’ll cut right to the chase. I have a lot on my mind today.
My overthinking brain is in overdrive. I am trying not to march into negative thinking territory again after quite an interesting ‘fitness evaluation’ freebie I got at the gym I signed up for next to my apartment and am vowing to take a day to ‘let it marinate’ before I delve into it more here (and in an attempt to quell said overthinking). With that preamble, I am hoping to harness some inspiration and perspective I’ve gotten out of a few fantastic reads of late.
For as much as I wax on about having – and keeping – perspective, I tend to falter here a lot more often than I’d care to admit. Especially lately. Maybe it’s fear. Maybe it’s my overthinking. Probably a bit of both. But sometimes, the extra kick in the ass is what I need to reel that perspective in and realize that if nothing else, I am able, I am happy, I am downright blessed.
So when I read Christine’s post after starting to get sad that I am not running this Sunday’s half marathon with my sister Jess (though I will be there cheering her on, and running parts of it with her, hopefully! AND meeting Christine, as I hear SHE is running it too! Yay!)), I realized a few things. Just because I am not running a half marathon doesn’t mean I am not a runner. And for as many runs where I struggle, I have at least two that are really good. That’s huge for me. The dreadmill thing is conditioning me. And more so than that? I am able to run. I have a fully functioning body. I am healthy. I am not injured. I am fully capable of getting back to that half marathon…one day. So reading Christine’s very personal post about her accident and how far she’s come, and this particular statement: “Comeback stories are the best… they show that there are great opportunities in life’s setbacks.” I seriously couldn’t agree more. I have opportunity. This is my chance. I just need to focus on the good, work on the areas I need to, and move on.
Challenges are both my nemesis and my catalyst. But at the end of a challenge, I always conquer. So...game on, let’s do it.
This brings me to the beautiful Melissa’s post over at Live, Love & Run, on acceptance. On accepting your body, your life, your loved ones, everything. It struck me particularly today given aforementioned fitness evaluation but also because I have struggled with this very concept for awhile as has Melissa (I swear, our brains are in unison on some of this stuff lately!), and seeing her gain a ‘moment of clarity’ with regard to herself and her body, well, it gave me the kick in the ass (again!) that I need to do the same. See myself as others see me. Pick out the good, not the bad, and work on the in-progress areas each day, because a little goes along way. I’m going to ‘borrow’ her image here, because it’s absolutely the truth. This is the reminder I need today. And everyday, let’s face it.
And finally, two more posts ignited such inspiration, I just had to share them. First, Alicia at Poise in Parma (who I get to meet this Saturday! Yay!) posted on today being ‘National Evaluate your Life’ day (in part inspired by Tina’s post at Faith Fitness & Fun, which I wanted to stand up and give a standing ovation for, particularly this: “…this post is a plea from me to you. A plea to take a close look at your life. Really take the time to consider your goals. Pay attention to how you spend your time..A plea to live the life that matches your values.. ”
So, what are the values I want to align my life to? AM I aligning my values to my life? In some ways, I think I am, but in others, I think I have a lot of work to do. Here are a few of the values that are really important to me right now, and they really tie back to how I am feeling mentally and physically and some of the goals I am working on to move past the negativity, to ‘mentally’ grow into the healthy body I am carving out (instead of falling into ‘fat day’ moments constantly etc).
Simplicity. Last weekend is a perfect example of simplicity. I want to simplify my life (back to my manifesto!), focus on me, M, my family, my closest friends. And the rest? Well, it’s still important, but peeling back the layers, what is most important is that list. Nothing more. Nothing less. Same goes for my fitness routine. I want it to be simple. I want it to be focused. And most of all, I want it to be what works for me and what I want to do. Not because I think I ‘should’ do certain things over others. (more on that tomorrow…).
Integrity. This goes hand-in-hand with honesty, to me. And living with integrity and honesty (not brutal honesty, but honesty nonetheless) is important to me. Being transparent, open communication. No games. No lies. Integrity. Important indeed.
Confidence. This is a toughie (and maybe this isn’t so much of a ‘value’ but to me, it is). Some days I am, some days I’m not. I just want the confident days to far outweigh the lackluster ones. Is that so much to ask? I think confidence is freeing. Freeing from fear, freeing to grow and freedom that the sky is the limit. I am mentally blocking myself from things in life that I shouldn’t be. Lack of confidence is robbing me of things I don’t want it to and that I never want it to again.
It was actually incredibly hard to come up with a handful of values I want to align my life to, but in writing them out, I am already feeling more clarity on some things.
I challenge you to do the same…’evaluate your life,’ what are the values you want to align your life with? And what inspires you like no other? How do you dig yourself out of that mental tailspin?
I struggle with it every day…but it never ceases to amaze me how writing it out and really dwelling on it for a bit actually frees my mind more than anything else. I hope this wasn’t *too* all over the place as I suspect it was…but try being in my brain for a day and you’ll see the maze going on in there 😉