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It’s now been four months since I embarked on the barre n9ne challenge, and I finally feel as though I am right where I’m meant to be.
There is progress on all fronts.
Yeah, I am feeling good. Better than good. The best I have ever felt about myself. I am not scared of the scale anymore either. Sure, I still don’t want to see my number, but when I weighed in on Monday, I did want to see the progress. And ya know what? I am thisclose to my goal weight. (or so I estimate based on the latest loss!). AND up to 13.25 inches lost! Mentally? I am not comparing almost at all anymore. To anyone. My sister, my friends, others in class. I am just focusing on me and what my body is doing in the mirror. Because what matters to me is me, nobody else. What’s the sense in worrying how I think I fare against others so long as I am happy with me?
Approach to food?
Food. As. Fuel. Still absolutely stand by that statement and my post on it. Yes, I still log my food and yes I still plan ahead. But ya know what? I will always plan ahead. I may not always log my food specifically, but right now, it’s helping me stay on track and understand the appropriate amount of food I should be eating. I am almost to the point where I don’t think I need to officially track it, because a) my body has completely adjusted to this number and b) I know what’s in my food almost all of the time because I prepare it. I hardly eat out, and when I do, I pick healthy choices. I don’t gorge. I leave feeling satisfied but not stuffed. I don’t have – and don’t miss – that feeling of ‘oh my God, I am soooooo full’ anymore and I wake up feeling refreshed after a night out (yes, even after drinking some wine!) because I have balanced what I ate the day prior. It’s such a different and good feeling. It’s consistent and completely doable.
Quite simply, my running feels awesome. M and I have found some GREAT routes near our new digs and we have a 3, 4.5, 5, 6, 6.5 and 7 miler routes all intertwined with each other that we have been picking and choosing from on a daily basis (3-4 times a week with one run being a longer run). It’s not regimented. It’s not ‘training’ for anything. It’s just running to run. This weather has been ideal for me as well. Breathing has been good, pace has been good. No panics. I am hopeful it’ll continue as the weather cools, and I hope to run at least once a week outside in the winter (realistically will not run when there is tons of snow on the ground though!!) and dreadmill it at the gym next door a few times a week. (and yes, I still do have that 13.1 run do-over on my mind…it’ll happen, I promise)
I think this goes without saying…incredible. There are some exciting changes coming up soon and I can’t wait to share more. For now, my sis and I are loving every class we go to (we even had an epiphany the other night!) and are completely focused on what the class gives us. A ‘barre n9ne high’ is what I like to refer to it as 😉
All in all, I feel progress on all fronts of my loosely defined goals. I say loosely because yeah, I am focused on continuing the challenge and on running etc., but I don’t have a hard and fast goal in mind at the moment. And that feels pretty great. Loose goals all around is working for me right now.
What about you? Any progress you are embracing right now? On any front?