*I wrote this last night and while this feeling has since passed, I wanted to share it anyway, as a reminder to myself, and to blurt out on ‘paper’ what’s swirling in my brain presently**
A funny thing since the 60 day challenge officially ended a couple of weeks ago (though we are measuring- and weighing-in again in mid-August to see if we’re still making progress at the 90 day mark!).
I find myself wavering eeever so slightly.
With food choices. (read Jess’s blog here for what obviously is what is weighing on my mind too)
With body image (ugh. hate to even admit this).
With where-to-go-from-here once the half is over…deciding on my next steps, my mixture of running-to-barre ratio and what else I may (or may not) add in come fall/winter when running outside is not nearly as feasible (winter, mainly!).
Maybe it’s tiredness (let’s face it, Jess and I have both been going balls to the wall with our workouts, combined with the crescendo of our long runs leading into our half marathon on August 14!)
Maybe it’s fear of the unknown just a little bit.
Maybe it’s the ‘going halfway and then stopping’ mentality.We’ve come SO far, why stop now? Why not keep exploring and seeing what our bodies can do?
And maybe it’s a wee bit of PMS (the body image stuff trying to poke it’s head back into my brain).
And maybe it’s a little bit of all of this wrapped together as the challenge becomes even moreso MY journey, MY schedule, MY choices. And that’s a little scary after having something a little more structured to follow.
But the sky’s the limit. And I want – and am motivated to – keep going, keep pushing (safely), keep making (and reaching!) new goals.
But up first? The half marathon on August 14. It’s coming up so fast and I am actually really excited about it. It’s daunting, as any race would be at this level, but I am finally confident that I can do it. And I want to prove it. To myself. (no wavering here!).
I guess we all have wavering moments sometimes, huh? Has this ever happened to you? <–like how I kinda talked myself out of wavering after writing it out? reason #257 why I love my blogging haven so!