I always thought I was a committed person. Ya know, ‘go big or go home,’ right?
But the more I look at my habits, the more I wonder if I really am as committed as I’d like to think I am.
As my sister blogged about, there are some changes afoot to all things food log and my first reaction (as was hers), was, “can I do this?” I want to see the big results, I want to see the significant before/after, but I have always stopped just short of that ultimate goal.
And it isn’t just with this challenge.
It’s with much of what I have done fitness-wise. I stop just short. I commit just enough, but not fully.
Commitment doesn’t mean ‘go halfway, then stop.’
It means ‘go big, or go home!’
It means devote yourself, focus, set goals and reach them, don’t just ‘sorta’ get there.
I tie this into running too. This morning, I was on another attempt at running outdoors, controlling my breathing and trying to increase my mileage by juuust a smidge.
What did I do a couple of times?
I stopped. Caught my breathe.
Why did I stop?
Why didn’t I try and gain control of my breathing again after that hill instead of just stopping?
My first inclination is to stop.
Fight or flight.
But similar to the next phase of this 60 day challenge, I need to commit. To this and to running.
To truly see the change I want, the change I need, I need to commit.
It seems so simple, but really, it takes change and 100% full-on focus, devotion and commitment.
And I’m ready. As my sister so aptly put it: I’ve got to learn to be fearless. To own each challenge I commit to. This is my time. To finish what I started.