My boss called me this morning (interim boss, that is, not the one that is on maternity leave) and the first words out of his mouth were “listen, I feel badly about yesterday. I know how it feels to be busting your ass and still get shit on. I’ve been in your position before, and that sucks. So I owe you an apologize. I’m sorry.”
That was huge, and was something he didn’t necessarily have to do, but he did anyway, because that is truly the type of person he is. I really respected that, and was pretty much floored by his call (which was at 6:30 am his time, I might add! He’s an early riser and drives in to the office early, but that also showed me that I was a priority in that instance).
And, in the back of my mind yesterday, as upset as I was the rest of the day (with additional remarks made by other people throughout the day that just compounded my feelings), I knew that was the basis for his reaction, notsomuch that I was doing a shitty job. But in the heat of the moment, it felt absolutely awful and I couldn’t get past it.
But today was a new day. And it went so much better than yesterday. We are almost to the launch we are planning for and hopefully some stress will start deflating from me, and everyone else who’s been working on this project.
I breathed a sigh of relief, and realized that I am one more step towards my journey here, one more milestone to get through (handling critical feedback, trying to remain confident or at least, with a game face on). I
hopefully got this.
Thank you once again for all of your feedback here, and on Twitter yesterday, to this and my body image struggles. I feel truly blessed to have such a support system ‘virtually’ and in real life. You all quite simply, rock.
The weather here today is gorgeous, sunny, and quite warm for these parts and I think that calls for grilling, the driving range (for M and my BIL) and ice cream for my sister, one of my closest friends and me, don’t you think? (I am envisioning that twist soft serve as we speak…my absolute favorite – while still low fat! – what’s your favorite ice cream?!)