Today, I find myself raging against perspective, even though it’s what I strive for…
…whining about 3-hour meetings every night this week (till 7 or 8 pm)…but at least I’m home (was supposed to be out West this week). <–so, why am I complaining?!
*at least I am home*
…in the ‘hating to ask questions’ mode again this crazy-busy Monday…but it’s the only way to learn <– and 9 times out of 10, people are willing to help!
*I just hate feeling ‘stupid’**
…feeling uber-anxious about the next couple of weeks’ work challenges, like whoa. <– but being home and on the phone helps me with my game face
*so, why can’t I shake the anxiety?*
…still struggling with running, yet had a decent run (dreadmill, no less).
*Okay, this one, I feel good about, yay!*
Do you ever have those days where even when you most want to see the perspective, see the light, you still get stuck in the trenches of stress-stress-stress, wah-wah-wah? No, just me? (wink) Today is one of those days.
Despite having a wonderful weekend. Despite feeling so much love around me and for those around me (especially for a certain someone named M…swoon). Despite having a lot to be thankful and blessed for.
I’m disappointing myself today, and hope writing this out helps me pull myself out and onward.
Because, at the end of the day, life’s pretty damn good, despite the challenges handed to us. (now listen to yourself, dammit! <–note to self) Borrowing a quote from T today, this is what I’m thinking about this week:
“If we’re willing to give up hope that insecurity and pain can be exterminated, then we can have the courage to relax with the groundlessness of our situation. This is the first step on the path.”
~ Pema Chodron
(and seriously, if I write one more sentence today riddled with typos, I’m going to slap myself. Ever have one of those days too, where every other word is a typo? Annoying!)
(for the record, no joke, that sentence had 5 typos in it as I wrote)