The words of my spin instructor this evening at 24 Hour Fitness. (who knew I could find inspiration for a post behind words of a spin instructor!)
And man, that hit me upside the head like a ton of bricks. Her words had such power for me tonight, after a tough day at work for me, mentally.
I’ve mentioned before how much these trips take out of me, and how much more ‘on’ I feel I need to be when I am in-person and trying to ‘put on the face’ I can hide a bit when I’m working from home (easier to convey confidence on a phone call!). I was feeling *way* over my head on a few things at work, and that, combined with being told I should move my flight out a bit later on Thursday to attend a meeting was making me feel close to the verge of tears.
But tonight’s class? Wow. Some of the words she spoke were meant to be heard by me tonight. I crazily jotted them down in my phone (and drafted a fun ‘diary of a spin class’ post for my sister’s blog as a guest post because besides feeling inspired, that class was effing no joke!! Was awesome and pukeworthy…my favorite kind. Yes I’m serious.).
Some good ones:
“Crystallize your goal. Because a fuzzy goal isn’t a goal. Close your eyes. Name two things you want to reach. What are they? Do you see them?”
“Go one step before breathless. Push yourself.”
“Your body can do this, it’s your mind that will stop you. Trust your body”
In my mind: my two goals? Confidence (at work), and the ability to run another half marathon (this one’s been looming over me and stressing me, because I’m still struggling my way back to half marathon running ability and the breathing is going to take work for me, moreso than I thought).
As we pushed through some extremely difficult intervals on our bikes, I visualized the hell out of those two goals and you know what?
I really felt like I can tackle the world…one day (and spin class) at a time.
Yeah, maybe it’s a little cheesy. But I firmly believe that class was meant for me two-fold: to push me physically past my comfort zone to a stage in my breathing where I felt panic-stricken and then controlled my breathing (my fear when I run is that very thing happening) and realizing that yeah, I don’t have all the answers at work. I just need to be honest when I don’t and don’t try to fake it every time. Because that’s just gonna get me in trouble, now isn’t it?
So, with that in mind, and the fact that I am absolutely going to meet a few more Cali goals this week – go to the beach (tomorrow, hopefully with Erika in tow!) and a new goal – drive with the top down on the sweet convertible Mustang I scored for the week (I don’t know why that scares me, but it just does!).
My other goal? Squelch homesickness. I really really really want to squelch that. It’s not helping me to feel that way, and I know it’s just a few days…I can handle that, right?
(wow, re-reading this post, I’m kinda all over the place…hopefully you can follow along!).