Because choosing battles, and what you can affect and influence is far more productive than what you can’t.
Or, as my sister said to me tonight, “don’t steal your own joy.”
Um, dude, so right. Why am I trying to do that?!
To rewind a bit, I woke up exhausted (and awoken suddenly after having a ‘worry dream’ as M always reminds when I tell him I’ve had a bad dream about something random) and wondering if I am already feeling this tired now, and my boss hasn’t even left for maternity leave yet, how will I feel when she does?
…only to be informed that she could go as early as two weeks, but no later than April 4.
Gulp. Far too early for me to feel settled.
So, that feeling of stress and angst carried with me through much of the day. But you know what? I have proven so far that I can do this job and that sure, it will be a learning curve to know as much as she does (and I am realistic in knowing I can’t cram 5 years of her career at this company into two months of mine!) and I’ll just do the best I can.
Accepting that I can only affect what is in my control.Not what isn’t.
And sure, the travel is wearing. Sure, I miss M, my family and my cats (don’t laugh!). And sure, I am not looking forward to another short week-long furlough between trips. But after that? Jamaica. That trip stays intact whether my boss goes on leave early or not. And that’s reason #257 why I love my job.
So, I plan to go into the rest of the evening, enjoying some quiet time, perhaps a little Core Fusion, and look forward to stepping on that plane tomorrow, towards home…because that’s truly where my heart is.
And sometimes, that’s all that matters.