Catching up on my blog-reading at the airport and over the weekend, I read INRIS‘ latest post, on the passing of his dear friend Gabe, and as he reposted her last poetry slam before her death, I again watched it and rewatched it, and shared it with M, and posted it to Facebook.
Her words touched me deeply then, and they still touch me deeply now.
What *are* we waiting for, in life? For a finite end to work towards? A goal to meet? A reason to act on all those ‘wanna do’s,” “wish I could’s” and “if only I could…” musings?
I feel as though I am taking the leap this year with a job that is completely out of my comfort zone, continuing to tackle fitness challenges, and even more so, challenging my own regimented self at things that are hard for me to see beyond. Like realizing my routine *can* stand to be tweaked (and the world won’t fall apart!), maintaining balance in my life and my relationship (but not to the point of rigidity or conversely, over-compromise) and learning to communicate more, and not hiding behind the ‘everything’s okay’ mantra.
But even with all of those challenges, it makes me wonder…am I doing enough? Or are all of these things ‘surface’ and I could be doing more to make a difference, not just in my life, but in others, too.
I don’t have the answer for that. I don’t really know. But what I do know is that sometimes that swift kick in the ass of reality…Gabe’s words of “what the fuck are you waiting for?” are what I need to stay focused and on my path towards the great, not just the status quo.
If you haven’t watched this video, please do. It’s worth the 5 minutes and even more worth the reflection…what *are* we waiting for?