Well, I made it. This was a really long week, as expected, and full of challenges, as I’ve noted, but I feel invigorated and ready for the challenges that lie ahead. So, I thought this quote for today would be perfect for how I’m feeling:
“Life’s challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they’re supposed to help you discover who you are.”
Challenges are supposed to be hard, sure, but if you don’t allow it to paralyze you, you almost always come out stronger on the other side, more aware of your strengths and capabilities and with the perspective you need to face future challenges. I firmly believe that.
I almost let the paralysis take me over this week, at points, I admit that. But then I reminded myself that this is my opportunity to shape myself, to shed the negative perceptions before they even start, and to take charge. This week gave me the confidence that I can do it, I got this.
Because these are my co-workers. They aren’t my clients.
That shift has been huge for me. Far bigger than I ever imagined. Being in an agency setting for so long, I was accustomed to the service aspect of my job, to being the ‘yes, (w0)man’ many times rather than going against the grain where sometimes it makes sense to. I didn’t realize how much I had gotten into that habit of just doing, and not challenging or suggesting another idea instead. And after meeting so many of the faces I’ve talked to on the phone or emailed back and forth with, I know they are ‘on my side’ and are supportive of what I’m trying to do within this position. And they’re supportive and want to help. We are one team. There is no ‘us vs. them’ mentality. That is HUGE for me.
So, already, I am discovering that the shyness I’ve stumbled across in the past at my old job isn’t so much of a struggle so far in this one. I don’t feel as intimidated, I do feel more confident, and I am looked at for my expertise. MY expertise. Yea, that’s right…I got it and they know it. That’s an awesome feeling.
I know there are plenty of challenges that lie ahead. The constant travel for the next few months. The 10 weeks between now and when my boss goes on maternity leave…and then the 8 weeks I’ll be flying solo until she returns. But it doesn’t scare me or paralyze me. It inspires me because the ‘me‘ in June is going to be even stronger than the me now. Six months and counting.