I’m not sure where I gathered this quote from, but I absolutely love it. And after a few disturbing dreams this week (one of which I mentioned here) that to me, signify fear, worry, and losing those around me, it’s fitting for Quote Friday.
“Kiss your life. Accept it, just as it is. Today. Now. So that those moments of happiness you’re waiting for don’t pass you by.”
I dreamed last night that my grandfather died. I woke up breathing heavy, stressed, sad, and worried. I genuinely thought it was real and he means so much to me. And yes, I know, we’ve all had these death-type dreams before, or dreams of losing those around you (by break-up, death or whatever it may be), but I’ve had two in the last three days. As much as I like to wax poetic about being happy, and embracing my life, I also worry a hell of a lot. As evidenced by my dreams.
I worry about my new job. Am I doing well? Am I establishing myself? Do they trust me?
All signs point to yes, two weeks in, yet I still worry. Part of it’s natural I’d like to believe.
I worry about my finances. Or lack there-of.
Going on almost a full month without a paycheck before my new paycheck kicks in sucks. BIG TIME (since I thought I was getting one more check from my old job and no such luck, apparently. Didn’t budget for that chunk of change missing!). But I know it’s very much temporary (as in, a week away and then I can finally start saving again and um, not overdrawing).
Yet I still worry. (again, mostly natural, but I have a big problem with focusing far too much on it, trying to ignore it rather than face it. I’m working on changing that, as I know I need to).
One thing I don’ t worry about though, is M.
And for that, I am grateful. I believe in us. And I believe that we have staying power. And I trust him with all of my heart.
Another thing I don’t worry about? My friends.
For the very same reason as why I don’t worry about things with M.
And if I can say that, honestly, that’s all that really matters, when you boil it down. Right?
So I ask you…what in your life makes it kissable? What can you accept in lieu of all the good? For me, I can accept my finances, I can accept new job worries. I can accept a lot of other worries and challenges in life because I know I can tackle a lot. And, because far more important is that the rest of my life, and my family, friends and love are rock-solid.
Happy weekend friends, make it a fan-frickin-tastic one, will ya?