Day two of my new job and admittedly, I was feeling more overwhelmed today, than yesterday (you’d think day one would be the overwhelmed day, but I guess it’s hitting me more as I learn more and more about my new job), but that’s to be expected, right?
Adding to the overwhelmedness was a few things…tons of meetings today, coupled with some quick deadlines on a few projects where it’s my turn to quickly show my chops and prove myself (no pressure…), and the realization that my travels are quickly ramping up (trips out here the week of 1/24, 2/14, and 3/1 for starters!).
And as my sister blogged about yesterday (as we go on parallel new job journeys!), it’s time to realize that I’m facing a ‘new normal’ and while some of it is exciting, new and is re-invigorating the passion I’ve lost for my job over the past few years, a hell of a lot of it is just NEW and my routine that I love so dearly? Yeah, that’s pretty much out the window (as expected), like whoa.
I know I will adjust and my ‘new normal’ will quickly become my ‘normal’ and some things, like my travel, will wane a bit once summer comes, it’s all happening at once. And I got that slight panic feeling halfway through the day but then realized two things: this is exactly what I want and need in my career and this is stretching me a hell of a lot longer and faster in the ‘be uncomfortable’ resolution I’ve bestowed upon myself.
It’s what I want and it’s what I need.
And as scary as it feels, it excites me to think that when I look back at this time, in six months from now, I’m going to see a lot of changes, a lot of strength and a lot of confidence.
(of course, the road to get there will have its challenges).
And then I think about M and how much he’s signing on for with me and my new job. And he’s already being so supportive, as much as I know he misses me (and I miss him). I’m sure we’ll have our strains with some of this, but so far, he’s proving he’s in it to win it and it makes me love him all the more.
I’m feeling so lucky, so blessed, and so utterly ready to face this. It’s scary, but I know I can do it. I already am.
Amid all the new tonight was the dash of familiarity I needed.
A visit and dinner with one of my bloggy friends (who I met at Bloggers in Sin City last year) – Newlyweds on a Budget Erika and Eric.
Eric made us a homecooked meal (which I crave since I have been eating out so much, albeit sensibly, throughout this week) and we talked and giggled and drank a glass of wine (it *is* winesday after all…) and talked about all the fun things we can do when I am out here.
And I felt welcomed. And better. And more excited about my visits. Having some friends here will be awesome. It’ll make a huge difference and I feel so thankful to have met them last year, and have kept in touch and as fate would have it, cross paths so closely again (who knew they lived in the SAME town as my job?!).
God works in mysterious ways. And I truly think we are meant to meet people in our lives for specific reasons, and at specific times in our lives.
Amazing how that works, isn’t it?