In the words of Katy Perry (okay, so what, I love her music, I admit!), “so, take a chance and never look back.”
Today is my last day at my job.
After 8 and a half years, it feels scary, yet exhilarating. It probably won’t really hit me until next week, as I fly out to California for my first week of orientation and training. This job is completely out of my comfort zone in many ways (the somewhat extensive travel, for one), but familiar in others (similar job, but not at an agency, and I’ve worked with this company before). What I look forward to most is starting fresh…shedding the “perceptions” that have
haunted followed me over the years (that I’m shy, which yes, I can be, but that doesn’t define me, not at all. That I’m not overly assertive…I can be, but sometimes haven’t been given the opportunity, etc.), and coming in strong, confident (even if I have to ‘fake it’ at first) and as a leader.
The feeling is almost akin to starting at a new school, where nobody knows you, and you can create your own persona, shedding how you were ‘seen’ in the past, so people see the REAL you, and not the you they “think” you are.
I’m excited about that, probably almost more than anything.
I’m looking forward to the next step in my career and moving past the stagnation I’ve felt for the past few years, in particular, and learning, developing, and growing.
I’m looking forward to meeting new people, traveling to new places, and well, working from home, too.
I’m looking forward to facing new challenges, being scared sometimes, and knowing that I can do it. Because I am strong. Because I know my shit. Because I’m smart.
I was 22, fresh out of college, and wide-eyed. I had been with my ex-husband for two years, as boyfriend and girlfriend. I celebrated an engagement at my job. I celebrated getting married at my job. I celebrated buying a house at my job. Conversely, I hid my separation behind closed doors…often crying in my office and praying nobody would walk by. It finally trickled out, and once I got divorced (going through it with a dear friend and co-worker at the time, as she too, was getting divorced), I felt able to face the world again.I’ve faced a lot while at my job, work-wise and personally, so of course, this place holds a warm spot in my heart. But it also represents some struggles I’ve had, so in that way, I look forward to moving on, finally, after so long.
I leave my job at 31, strong, independent, happy, and in a loving relationship. I took a job that many probably didn’t think I had the guts for. But guess what? I
guess I do.
And I’m ready to bring it.
…”so, take a chance…and never look back.”
My horoscope, sent to me yesterday, by M – echoes my thoughts exactly.
Today you should get an early glimpse of what 2011 could hold for you, Libra. If you are hoping to enjoy a little added excitement in the coming year, you’ll be pleased to know that you’re going to get your wish. Although we’re now winding down through the last few days of 2010, you should already be future-oriented and thinking ahead to the achievements you hope to make. You may be feeling quite ambitious. You need to make a conscious effort to maintain this mindset, because the world is yours if you keep your eye on the prize.